- FANFICTION - Sucker For Pain

[uedanoyome]

Title: Sucker for Pain

Pairing: Kamenashi Kazuya/Ueda Tatsuya, Kamenashi Kazuya/Tanaka Koki friendship, Ueda Tatsuya/Taguchi Junnosuke friendship,

hints of Kamenashi Kazuya/Fukada Kyoko

Genre: BDSM, Smut, comedy, fluff

Rating: NC-17, R-18

Summary: Kamenashi Kazuya is a prim and proper idol who ends up working for a new project with the newcomer rising actor Ueda  Tatsuya. Kamenashi decides to accept the offer lightheartedly, thinking it would be as easy as one of his usual jobs. However, he didn't imagine it would end up being the most challenging work not only for his career but also for his private life.

Chapters: (1/??)

Warnings: contains explicit manXman sex scenes, cursing, sort of psychological violence

Disclaimer: I don't own the characters, just the story, which is -of course- only fantasy.

A/N: I usually would have never written this kind of KameDa before. But, since I happened to read a KameDa fanfic which was a BDSM fanfic as well, I wanted to write something like that for a very long time since it really inspired me given how beautiful it was! (when I'll be able to find the link again, I'll share it with you. If the author happens to read this: THANK YOU FOR HAVING CREATED THAT STORY! And sorry for having taken inspiration from some bits of it). Also thanks to a manga which helped me knowing more about BDSM in general lol.
I'm posting the other chapters on AO3, so if any of you wants to read them, just follow this link! https://archiveofourown.org/works/21092498/chapters/50183540

CHAPTER I

Kamenashi Kazuya is one of the most loved and famous idol and actor of all times: he's got a beautiful and handsome face, charisma, a perfect smile, stage presence, a wonderful singing voice and he is a skilled actor as well.

Thus, he is considered his agency's sex symbol.

He is indeed the man every girl dreams of and he has always been aware of it.

He knows very well how handsome and talented he is: it was obvious, so why should he even pretend not to know it?

Perfect life, perfect looks, and a wonderful girlfriend as well: He was Fukada Kyoko's boyfriend. They became the most loved couple out there. So, yeah, there was nothing he would have ever complained about in his perfect life, don't you think so?

He was always busy: if it did not have to do with music, he would be performing in some stage plays or whatever like that.

And that time, he had an even more important job coming for him for the first time: he would have acted in an action movie. Something he's never done before.

So, that day, he was going to his first meeting with the director and the fellow actors, a normal, boring routine he had to follow before they'd start filming stuff.

He entered the room where the director was waiting for him and sat down on his seat after having introduced himself.

"So, aren't we going to start yet?"

He looked around the room and saw an empty seat.

"We're waiting for your co-star. He's gonna be the main character together with you, so we have to discuss about what you two have to do".

Kamenashi nodded and rested his face on his fist. No professional actor would ever be late for a meeting for their own movie, especially for the first meeting. What kind of impression would he even give to the others? Kame knew well how this world worked. It was all about looks and manners, so you had to do whatever would please people around you to be liked.

After three quarters, the other actor finally decided to show up in the room. A slim, muscular guy with blonde and spiky hair, wearing a tight t-shirt, leather black jacket, large military pants and combact boots opened the door in a rough and noisy way. Said guy didn't even bother to excuse himself for being hella late; he just sloppily sat on his chair, not even daring to take his sunglasses off.

Witnessing this behaviour, Kame and his manager looked at each other. They were genuinely confused, however, the director just nodded with a smile on his face and started talking, explaining what the movie would be about.

"Now, let's move on to the introduction. Kamenashi Kazuya is going to be our first main, and Ueda Tatsuya our second main. Since this is your first time working together, and since you need some good chemistry between you two, I would suggest you to try to get to know each other better before we start filming. You have never met each other before and have to act like the best of buddies, so I'd suggest you guys to use wisely these months you have before filming starts. Here are your scripts. Please, remember what I told you. Also, I want to remind you that there's no way for you two to escape since you have already signed the contract~" he chuckled amused, he felt really accomplished by what he had just said.

Ueda lowered his glasses in order to look at Kamenashi, he was unimpressed even though he had the most famous and wanted idol and actor right in front of him.

"Tch".

That was all Ueda had to say, then he put his glasses back on.

Kame didn't really know whether to feel annoyed or not, nevertheless he put on a little smile and slightly bowed to his co-actor.

"Then, I hope we can get on well, Ueda-san".

Contrary to what he expected, Ueda just looked at him silently and cut him off with a dry "Whatever".

He was still new in that industry, yet he already had a strong impact on people and directors, especially for action-related stuff.

He was handsome, so, of course, all girls loved him, but he was also known to be really mysterious. His private life was a mystery to everyone, he had never had any rumor, he hasn't ever been caught in any kind of scandal, not even love scandals. It was no exaggeration to say nobody knew anything about him, except for his name and age. The only rumor he had had about himself was that he actually didn't live in Japan. He would occasionally go there when he had some offers he liked (he never accepted all the offers he was given), but after being done -or every now and then between shootings- he'd leave again for wherever he lived. Oh, and the fact that he didn't really seem to be that friendly was well known to everyone.

Kame didn't expect he would have experienced it on his own skin. But he was a pro, so he wouldn't have played the same game Ueda was playing. He kept having his smile printed on his face and tried to be as friendly as possible. Thinking about it, he even found interesting the fact that now Ueda had to be in Japan for quite a while even before shooting.

Ueda hit the table with his hand: "Are we done then? Is this all, can I go now?"

Seriously, he hadn't spoken a word until then, but now, the only thing he had to say was that? Why did the director even choose somebody as impolite as Ueda?

The director let them off, still reminding them to try to create a sort of friendship - or at least feign one - before shooting.

However, neither Kame nor Ueda actually took seriously the suggestion the director gave them and they left the studio not even exchanging contacts.

Ueda turned to Kame before leaving, and spoke to him in a totally disinterested tone of voice: "We don't need to do all the bullshit that idiot suggested us to do. We're actors, we can easily mock him and make him believe we became buddies even if we don't follow what he said. Like hell, I don't have time to waste to go out with a stranger and pretend to be his bestie".

Kame was actually surprised that Ueda could actually make such a long speech, since he seemed to be that type of person who'd reply back using monosyllables.

Still, he felt quite annoyed by the amount of curses he used. While it was true Kame was younger, he nevertheless was his senior and, on top of that, a stranger. That’s why he expected Ueda would have used a more appropriate and formal speech at least.

In spite of his character, what he had just said was quite fair: they were actors, so it would have been easy for them to pretend they actually had some chemistry. But, before Kame could even tell Ueda he agreed, the other man left the building without saying anything.

They thought they could easily get away with it, until both of them received a call from their managers the following day.

Kame picked up his phone just to be attacked by long strings of words so early in the morning.

"Kazuya, I don't think you can really avoid meeting with Ueda-san. You know, your director literally knows everything and he already knows you two tried to mock him, so he called me this morning. I'll pick you up later since the director gave me some material you should follow while you are with Ueda, but this is something I'm gonna tell you about when I pick you up. Anyway, this is Ueda's contact, try to get in touch with him".

Kame blinked speechlessly, he knew that director kept a close eye on his actors but he didn't expect him to be that much of a stalker. Ultimately, he only had to give up and get ready. Work is work, so he just gotta do what he gotta do.

////

On the other side, instead, Ueda was still in the middle of his sleep when his manager phoned him, so it took him quite a while to pick up the call.

"What the fuck d'ya want? Haven't you seen what time is it now?"

Normally, Ueda isn't the most friendly person on Earth, but his level of grumpiness reached even higher peaks in the morning, especially if anyone dared to interrupt his sleep.

"I know it is early and I imagined you were sleeping, but I have received a call from your director, Ueda-sama"

"Ueda-sama" Yes, you read it well. Despite him being his manager, Ueda demanded that he'd call him that.

"What the heck does he want now? I'm not going to the studio again just to hear him say the same bullshits as yesterday", finally Ueda got up and looked for his shirt around his messy bedroom.

"That is not exactly what he wanted. He said he knows you and Kamenashi-san did not plan to meet up and did not exchange contacts, so he gave me Kamenashi-san's contacts and some papers for you to use while you meet with your colleague. I am going to send you Kamenashi-san's contact, then I am coming to pick you up later and give you the papers your director gave me. Please, try to get ready quickly because he wants you two to meet today".

Ueda snorted annoyed. He didn't really follow the whole speech his manager said, but he understood what was the point. And it made him even grumpier, so he just ended the call and went to have a shower.

"What the fuck, he's a fucking director, he should think of his damn movie only and not butt in other people's fucking lives. As if I'm even going to obey him. He knows for who he paid, anyways".

////

Kame was finally ready and he waited for his manager to pick him up.

As soon as Kame got in the car, his manager handed him some papers.

"Your director emailed me these things here. He said you and Ueda-san have to follow this sort of script, so you can actually relate to your characters. There's a list with things you are supposed to ask each other to get to know the other well, and things you need to do together".

Kame looked and quickly read the papers he was holding. His director really made a schedule for him and Ueda?! Was that even allowed? Kame was hesitating while he was busy reading those papers, and his manager noticed it. After all, his manager, Tanaka Koki, knew him best given the fact that they have been friends since forever and he could read him well.

"Kazuya, I know this is crazy but it's an important job, this one. It's gonna be on big screens so just go with it".

Kamenashi knew it well himself. It was the best offer he had had that year, so he had to work hard and succeed in his role so that many more offers as big would have come and his image would become even better.

He sighed and nodded, "Yeah, I know. I am not going to refuse it. I just have to hope this Ueda won't give me any problems, though".

"Have you contacted him yet?"

"I've sent him a mail before you came but he's not replied back yet".

Kame already foresaw himself having to bear with this pretty often now that he had to spend more time with that problematic and mysterious guy.

Be patient, Kazuya, be patient. This is why you're a pro.

///

"What the fuck is this shit?! You must be kidding me! That scumbag really made up a whole schedule! I'm not in, I absolutely am not up to it". Ueda's voice could be heard from the outside of his car, despite it being totally closed.

He threw the papers to his manager and twisted his lips in anger. He couldn't believe he had to follow that shit just for a damn movie. It wasn't the first time he acted with somebody he didn't know, so why the heck did he have to follow a damn script even out of his job and go out with somebody he didn't want to be with?

"I know you are angry now, but, really, it is a lot of money he is offering you and he is a famous director as well. This will help you get a lot of great offers, Ueda-sama! You cannot refuse it. It is just a meeting with a colleague every now and then, you had to stay in Japan during these months anyway, so just take it as a past time".

Taguchi Junnosuke, Ueda's manager, always tried to see the positive side of things and tried to persuade Ueda using his positivity.

Most of the times it worked, simply because Ueda couldn't be bothered by him insisting and talking for too long.

"Fuck it, there'll be other offers".

"Don't be like this, come on! If other directors know that you snobbed him, nobody will hire you, so just try it".

Ueda snorted, roughly grabbing the papers from his manager's hands, and gave them a quick look.

"I'll meet this Kamenashi-dude, but I'm not gonna follow this idiocy of a script".

Taguchi nodded and smiled accomplished: he knew Ueda would have listened to him, in a way or another, especially if he reminded him what would that movie offer him.

"Have you contacted Kamenashi-san, yet?"

"Heck, no! I would never dare to".

Taguchi sighed, Ueda was truly hopeless and would never change his mind if he didn't want to do something.

"You should contact him to meet"

Ueda snorted and took his phone: "Why should I? I believe the director gave GodNashi my contact as well. He's my senior so he shoulda contacted me first".

Ueda checked his phone and noticed that Kame had, indeed, sent him a mail asking him if it was alright to meet at a private cafeteria in a hour. However, when Ueda finally checked his phone, one hour had already passed, so he was, obviously, late.

"There ya go, he contacted me. Happy now? This dude here really took that scumbag seriously?!" , he snorted again and told him the place he had to go to, not even bothering to reply back to Kame's message.

///

Kame checked his watch. He had been waiting at that cafe for more than an hour already and that Ueda didn't even text him back to, at least, let him know if he would have reached him or not.

《How are we even supposed to get along if he doesn't even bother to reply back or come to a meeting?! I'm a pro and I don't have time to waste with a newcomer actor who's already so swollen-headed》.

He was about to leave the place when, finally, Ueda entered the room and listlessly sat in front of him. Again, not apologising, again not greeting.

Kamenashi coughed, in order to try to catch the other guy's attention, but, as expected, he was purposely ignored.

"Good morning, Ueda-san. I have waited for you for quite a while, plus, I was waiting for an answer to my message".

Kame kept a calm and low tone of voice, making sure not to sound too strict. The last thing he wanted was a fight with Ueda at their first meeting.

However, the only thing he got was a quick "Saw your message, now I'm here. G'mornin' ".

Kame tried so hard not to retort to Ueda's disinterested manners, but there was one thing he couldn't stand at the moment, and that is to say his sunglasses.

"Ueda-san, may I ask you to take your sunglasses off?"

"You may, of course, but this doesn't mean I'm gonna do it"

Kame took a deep breath and counted till ten before talking again, when he was finally calm again, then he started speaking.

"Well, we are in the middle of a talk, and I would rather look into your eyes than see myself into your specs".

Ueda smirked a little: "Oh really? Don't cha like the reflection? The famous and godly Kamenashi Kazuya? I thought you did. But, if you'd rather focus on your image later then, 'k".

Kame was just about to explode, but he tried to contain himself. He surely wouldn't have fallen into Ueda's trap and play the same game he was playing.

Finally, Ueda decided to take his sunglasses off, revealing two beautiful dark eyes, which were as bright and as deep and beautiful as black agate stones.

Kame looked at his eyes for a second, when he was interrupted by Ueda's "Ya happy now?".

He slightly nodded.

"Since our director told us we should meet to know each other better, I believe we should start talking according to what the script says".

Ueda laughed, he seemed to be really amused and Kame didn't really see the reason why he looked like that.

"Is there something funny, perhaps?"

"Just as expected from all directors' sweetheart Kamenashi Kazuya. You'd really follow that bunch of bullshits".

Kame looked at him and blinked a few times in order to collect his thoughts and phrase them in the less impolite possible way: "It's for the sake of our film's outcome. We got to make it look as natural as possible for it to be a success, thus, we ought to follow what we have been told".

Ueda laughed again, this time he avoided answering though. Seeing no words were coming from the other party, Kame just started talking again. Changing topic would, indeed, have been the best way not to lose his nerves.

"Since our script says we should talk about ourselves, why don't you tell me something about you? Your life, for example".

Ueda snorted and crossed his legs, making himself as comfortable as possible: "Hell no. There's a reason why it's called private life. So it should be private and not be spilled to any random stranger I meet. I'm not like the big star Kamenashi Kazuya, whose private life is all over the internet and tabloids".

Thinking of it, Kame started preferring when Ueda answered with monosyllables only or when he didn't answer at all. His words were as sharp as a knife, and Ueda himself knew it.

"It is just the two of us, we will be working together for a long time, so we will not be strangers anyways. Plus, our script says so". Kame kept using his formal and polite speech, meanwhile Ueda, who just defined Kamenashi as a stranger, kept talking to him so informally.

"The script, the script. You have already learnt that thing by heart? I'd rather clean my dog's shit with that script than actually follow it. I'm not like you, I don't do what they tell me to do, even if they are movies' directors or whatever they are. I do the fuck I want and however the fuck I want to. If I don't like it, I just won’t do it. So forget this whole bullshit, coz I'm not gonna answer any of those stupid things. As for you, we all already know everything about you. You live the perfect life: lotsa money, great success both as a singer and as an actor, and a hella bombshell as a girlfriend. Congrats, man" Ueda smirked and crossed his legs satisfied, especially when he saw Kame's expression gradually change from the professional idol Kamenashi Kazuya was to an annoyed and not-so-professional Kamenashi.

Kame looked at the guy in front of him and inhaled deeply. He was dangerously close to lose his last nerve and finally tell him to watch his mouth and shut the fuck up. But he didn't.

"You seem to be very informed. But these are not the only things we have to talk about".

"Listen, I'm not gonna talk about myself to a stranger. You might be okay with following a script in real life too, but I'm not. I've got no time to waste with all this falsehood and made-up scenes, unlike you. I don't like to be told what to do".

Kame felt these last phrases cut him sharply, it gave him chills all over his spine, but the only come-back he had was a low "Excuse me?".

Ueda stood up after sipping his coffee, leaned close to Kame's ear, and talked in a low and warm yet sharp tone of voice: "I'm not the one who has to follow what I'm told to do. People gotta obey me, not the contrary, Kame-chan".

So he opened the door and left without speaking further. While Kame was speechlessly looking at the chair where Ueda was sitting just a while ago, feeling Ueda's words running down his spine.

///

When his manager picked him up, Kame was furious, or actually ashamed that somebody he didn't even know had treated him the way Ueda just did.

Moreover, difficult to believe, he almost lost his composure once again while retelling the meeting he just had to Koki.

"I don't think I can do this anymore. I mean, meeting that guy".

Kame was trembling, be it for his nerves and anger, be it for some other reasons he still didn't know.

"Eh? Why? Kazuya, if you don't follow what your director told you to do, he'll know it and I don't really think it will be that pleasing".

Kame shook his head: "I just can't! That guy kept making a fool of me during the whole meeting! He's got no manners and no respect at all. He seriously says whatever he wants however and whenever he wants and I can't stand it again. He literally ridiculed me all the time, and his words were too sharp for him not to be serious. He really meant them!"

Koki was trying hard to calm his friend down and try to make him go back to his senses, but once Kame's pride has been hurt then there's nothing much to do.

"No, I really can't bear to be made a fool of by a newcomer who knows nothing about me and about the showbiz world".

Koki looked at him apprehensively.

"What about taking some days off him. Once you have calmed down, you'll agree with him for a second meeting? You don't have to rush things, so wait till you're in the mood again, but you gotta meet him. For your movie's sake, at least".

Kame sighed and nodded: "Fine, fine. But I don't want to meet him tomorrow, so let me be".

///

Junno picked Ueda up after he called him telling him his meeting with Kame was over. Now, the both of them were sitting in the car while heading back to the hotel Ueda was staying at.

"So? How was it with Kamenashi-san?"

Ueda smiled amused and kept a playful yet distinctively sharp tone: "Oh, we had lotsa fun. I might have some more fun next time I see him, but I, unfortunately, think he doesn't think the same. I actually don't believe he's ever gonna invite me out again, so sad". He laughed accomplished while Junno looked at him puzzled and sighed.

"Ueda-sama... Please, do not tell me you did it again? You did the same with your previous colleagues as well and they had the same reaction".

Ueda smirked: "Did what? I did absolutely nothing. Our director told us we should talk to know each other, so talking was all I did. I am starting to give him an idea of who I am, so he knows me too". Ueda's voice was really calm, yet it had a malicious tone which was worrying Junno. He knew how he treated his other colleagues and giving Kamenashi Kazuya the same treatment wouldn't have been a great idea.

"Ueda-sama, it is true he has to get to know you well, but he should not know that kind of side of yours. You should try to be friendly".

Ueda raised his eyebrow and slowly turned to Junno while twisting his lips. He leaned closer to his manager, grabbed his hair, and talked in a low, threatening tone: "Are you, asshole, perhaps telling me what to do? I didn't remember I gave ya the right to do this"

Junno's eyes widened, he felt chills run down his spine, his hands started sweating and his voice trembled. He realized he might have unconsciously touched Ueda's nerves with his advice, which Ueda misunderstood for some kind of commands.

"U-Ueda-sama, you know I would never dare commanding you anything. I was just suggestin-".

Ueda's hand tightened around his manager's hair, making the other man squeal.

"I don't take orders, I give 'em. Remember this. I don't need any suggestion, especially from you. I do the fuck I want, I know how to handle it. Apologise. Now".

Junno nodded and gulped, his voice still blatantly showing his fear and begging the man holding his hair: "I-I am sorry, I did not mean to get on your nerves. Forgive me, please".

Ueda's hand finally let him go and the manager took a sigh of relief. Angry Ueda is the scariest thing a person would ever want to see, things would be too dangerous for a normal person to bear, if so.

///

The following days, Kame refused to contact Ueda again for another meeting. He needed time to cool his head, and meeting with that guy again just to receive the same treatment as their first meeting, wouldn't have been the best choice.

However, a week had already passed, so, Kame knew that, despite him not wanting to, he had to contact Ueda again.

"Koki, do you have Ueda-san's manager's contact?"

"Yeah, the director gave me his contact as well. Why do you need it, though?"

Kame sighed: "I'd rather talk with his manager than Ueda-san himself when we have to agree on meetings. I already have to bear with him for a whole day, so I can't stand to have his annoyed voice fool me also while I'm trying to do my job".

Koki laughed and gave Kame his phone so he could get Ueda's manager's phone number.

"He is indeed nicer than Ueda-san, so you'll have it easier, at least".

Kame quickly composed Junno's phone number and called him. It didn't take that long for him to pick the call up. Kame was relieved: at least, one of them two didn’t ignore him!

"Hello? I am Ueda Tatsuya's manager, Taguchi Junnosuke speaking".

As Kame heard the cheerful and energic voice at the other side of the phone, he took a sigh of relief. Maybe, this time, it would have been easier to set a meeting.

"Hello, it's Kamenashi Kazuya. I am sorry if I disturbed you in the morning".

"Oh, Kamenashi-san! Please do not worry about it, you have not disturbed me at all! I am actually surprised to receive a call from you".

Kame could feel that the other man was smiling just by hearing his voice. He seemed so nice, and this made Kame wonder why couldn't he meet with him rather than meeting with Ueda. Surely, it would have felt much better.

"Ah, yes... About this call... I preferred to contact you, this time, to set a meeting with Ueda-san today. For a dinner".

Junno seemed relieved when he heard that Kame was actually okay with meeting Ueda once again. At least, he hadn’t escaped yet like the other actors Ueda worked with.

"I am really glad you want to meet him again! Currently, Ueda-sama is still sleeping but he does not have any plan for this evening, so it should be okay. Please, be patient! I am going to wake him up and inform him about your invitation. Then, I will contact you again to agree on the place and time. Is it okay?"

‘Ueda-sama’... For real? His manager really had to call him that? Seriously, who did that guy think he was to even demand something like that? Kame was sure it was Ueda who wanted to be called like that, based on the impression he gave on the first meeting.

That guy was too good to work with somebody as complicated as Ueda.

"Sure! Take your time! Thank you for your helpfulness!"

///

After he hung up the call, Junno rushed to Ueda's hotel room and quickly opened all windows so some light could get in the room.

"Ueda-sama, you need to wake up! I have some things to tell you. Please get out of bed".

He quickly took Ueda's blankets off, finding a half-naked Ueda right in front of him. Biceps, chest and abs at their best.

Ueda looked at Junno still half-asleep, but with a clear annoyed expression printed on his face. His voice was still mumbling: "What the fuck are you even doing, idiot?"

Junno was used to Ueda's insults, to the point that he couldn't even hear them anymore. He just liked to think of them like a sign of their friendship. He is really so positive.

"I have talked to Kamenashi-san a while ago; he wants to meet you again this evening. He wants to have dinner with you".

"Da fuck?! And this is why you came here making all this fucking noise?! Fuck off and lemme sleep, I won't meet anyone". Ueda took his blankets back on and lied back in the bed.

Junno sat next to him, complaining and whining just like a professional manager would do: "Please, Ueda-sama~ Listen to me, at least. Kamenashi-san is just trying to do his job"

Ueda snorted: "Holy shit, you can be so fucking annoying even when it's early in the morning".

Junno poked Ueda's arm, having him slap his hand away as a result. But, at least, he managed to keep him awake and now Ueda was finally sitting on his bed.

"I have to say I am surprised he wants to meet you again. You said you thought he would have not contacted you again".

Ueda snorted again and rolled his eyes: "I should have imagined that the wonderful Kamenashi Kazuya would never refuse to do something to please directors, or else he wouldn't be as famous". He clicked his tongue, but after a second he smirked mischievously. Junno was worried, that smile didn't mean anything good, he knew it well.

"Fine, he wants to follow that damn script and meet me? Okay. He'll have to meet me every fucking day, but it'll be his worst nightmare. Tell him I'll meet him this evening".

Comments are welcome! Let me know what do you think of it!

Comments

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Thank you! As soon as I felt better I started commenting it and it made me feel even more better to go back into the chapter haha!
Yes totally haha! That's true Kame does have a thing for cleaning so once again adding a little something from the real person is always a nice little touch haha.
I swear I so love when Kame is like that, no matters what Ueda might say he'll just obey without even thinking twice anymore, it really became like his natural self and it's so enjoyable haha. Yes still this lol!
He is haha.
Yees like already since Ueda mentionned abt it I'm excepting it but then to have them buy it for Kame I was like "it should be soon.." haha! (Haha thank you for all those researches, it's teaching the readers some stuff too!)
I swear it was so nice, like I love how each time you find a new way to add stuff, like we have new reactions from the characters each time and that scene was just so something!
Yes and it also make Kame feel a certain way to have Ueda's eyes on him like this first before to start the actual session/punishment~
Yes, even if Kame might still have slight hesitation cauz there is still a lot he doesn't know, he'll still go for it because he trust Ueda fully now.
For sure I don't imagine Ueda having Kame's butt in front of him and not touching him, plus it added even more to the scene like you had the anticipation of it, wondering when the caress would turn into a slap, I have no words for really describe it well but like to picture him caressing his ass while talking and then suddenly changing into spanking like.. qkzertyuio! Idk just so exciting haha!
I did really, a lot!
Kame's reactions were so good idek! Like how he first repeated after Ueda saying he was a fake and then asking for more and saying he deserves it.. zeortyuiiyds!!
Clearly like he should know now that he'd get aroused by anything Ueda is doing to him!
Yes like lol, too late Kame, Ueda saw it now like what are you even trying to do lol!
I swear how Ueda said that like qjefekrtyu! The best haha!
I swear, he may start to really know what he want, to say it out loud is still really hard for him haha, even when Ueda is helping him to say it!
Ueda should avoid to make Kame speak when it's like that hahaha! Stop to make him talk just make him moan instead!
IT DID! Like it should get to fucking everybody! Like Kame daring to do such gesture is really fucking something and says a lot about how he's wanting Ueda too! Like before, he would just let Ueda do it since it was also a new experience to have it done by a man and to have it done this well, he was still discovering but now he knows how Ueda does it he just go ahead and acts more like.. Like it clearly shows his desire for Ueda, to dare make such gestures when first of all he is a submitted but then to know he was, and still is, new to this, to feel such things but then now to really have such clear gestures on Ueda.. Like just fucking yes.
Clearly Ueda must have been so surprised/shocked like to see Kame doing something like that but couldn't be too bothered since he was at it and even he must have feel PLEASANTLY surprised to see Kame acting like this and showing his desire for Ueda~ To see how Ueda was excited after that anyway, guess Kame's gesture played to that too, Ueda is seeing how Kame is starting to want him too.
Clearly I could tell that was on purpose haha, but it's ok, I can wait, I still enjoyed the whole spitting thing anyway haha! Even tho it's supposed to be a little punishment it just looks dirty in a very good way haha, seeing how Kame was enjoying it because he could feel Ueda's taste.
Ueda is just turning Kame into a really dirty/pervy submitted but who wouldn't with such a Master~ haha!

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Yes you can really feel Ueda's desire in moments like this, he just let go of the session thing and just goes more for the "I want you" feeling without thinking at anything else but yeah despite this he still have to control himself so far haha.
Yes like this is getting closer and closer, first the toy, now having Ueda behind him like this and it worked so well seeing what Kame was thinking during it..!
Yes like so funny how Ueda is asking but he isn't even precising what and Kame is just there saying yes without knowing what it's gonna be, this or not asking would have been the same lol!
Yes we can really see it so much during those moments cauz there is nothing planned, there is no games anymore there is just them and the desire to always go beyond. Ueda is really acting much more like a lover when it's like this, the way he keeps kissing Kame's neck and just being hungry for him and caring for Kame and making him used little by little like this, clearly it always starts with the Master/submitted but end up into something more like lovers now. Which shows again how their relationship changed and got much deeper, even more deep than what Ueda and Kame themselves have imagined I believe.
YES! Like finally Kame is realizing it, took some time for him to admit it to himself but he starts to really not be afraid anymore of his own self and what he's feeling/thinking etc and this is SO GOOD haha. Even if we're still waiting him to say it out loud to Ueda, like seriously I dunno how that would be but if Kame ever say this out loud to Ueda or saying something along those lines for make it understand to Ueda... zjregtryy Ueda is gonna lose it for good haha!
Clearly it did work VERY well.
But yeah like how it was described, what was Kame thinking and wanting like fucking yes.
I swear like I said, I just can't imagine Ueda's reaction if Kame would ask him like.. O M G !! I just can imagine Kame begging for Ueda like moaning "Master" and then being all embarrassed and trying to make Ueda understand he want him inside.. ofrotryukliosredt!!! I need to stop now I'm having too much images into my head hahaha!
I don't doubt!
Yes I like how he is a bit more daring, despite being the submitted I love when he's touching Ueda like this here and there, guess he isn't doing it too much cz yeah Master/submitted but now that he realized his desire for Ueda I guess he'll just go ahead a bit more into this ? Or more like he'll do it more naturally because he wants him, so on the moment he'll just not think but react. Guess I'll see in the next chapters haha!
YES I CAN'T WAIT!!
Well for sure no one is gonna blame Kame for wanting to witness such a face each time he gets the chance haha, and yes especially knowing it was also cauz of him.
I swear at this point it's almost like he's living with Ueda already so why wait to make it official lmao!
OF COURSE! Like Kame's desire is so damn strong now he finally admitted to himself how much he's wanting Ueda! He was already looking at him before but right now he's so hungry/thirsty for him idek. I feel like he's so into it he might make a bold move in the next chapter, could be wrong tho but seeing how Kame is becoming you feel like he's gonna be braver haha!
For sure haha.
They are so much haha!
Always like once he's back to "normal" like not aroused or any sexual vibe he's back to being an idiot for this lol!
It was so hilarious I could picture Ueda's annoyed face and being so done by Kame that he had to say something despite him trying not to react much at first lol!
I swear lol! Such an idiot to do this haha!
It became their sort of ritual now haha! Kame is just doing it so naturally.
Lol! Such a thing to except from Kame but somehow he was able to say something haha, this until Ueda started to talk abt the hickeys.. lol! I swear he panics so easily but also is able to chill down more easily too now thanks to Ueda haha.
Yes that is also showing how much it changed! When before he would have been stressed out abt it for much longer!
For sure haha!

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I love the boyfriends vibe every now and then, showing once again how their relationship changed.
I do love clingy Ueda too haha, it's nice to have a balance between the Master and the more boyfriend type.
I really loved how Kame was clearly not bothered by Ueda this time, he was just annoyed by others people and this again is showing how he's changing so much towards Ueda. And yeah the "use me" like, clearly just showing how he's considering himself as Ueda's full submitted haha, like it's normal now.
Yes I was like "wow" to see how Kame wasn't giving a damn fuck abt the others he was just annoyed abt how if they start to say bad stuff abt Ueda, like this is everything. I'd so love to see Kame's reaction if someone was daring to ask him something like "Doesn't it bother you to have Ueda acting like that towards you ?" I wonder what Kame's answer would be but clearly feel like he'd defend Ueda so much.
Yes I really enjoy this scene, it was so nice to see Kame not caring and to have Ueda clingy haha, it's like really becoming normal for Kame that he so doesn't care abt others anymore, as long as it's Ueda everything's fine. Now he wouldn't do anything to push Ueda away no matters what it would be. And yes having it more "lovey dovey/boyfriends" style really shows what they must feel towards each other for act like that first of all and then even more doing it in front of everybody, not caring at all it's like their relationship is now stronger than anything else, especially for Kame who seems to have give up fully abt his image now.
Haha ofc like Ueda would obviously think of using Kame in so many ways, impossible not to think abt it!
He is haha like I said we aren't seeing it only from Kame's side but also from Ueda's side, how it changed.
He is so much like how he started to look at Ueda's body in details like this without even trying to hide it haha. And then end up to go wild into his thoughts.. Like the thirst is so real right now haha!
Knowing Ueda, he'd be weird if he didn't notice Kame's state haha!
I dooooo! I'm sure I will I don't doubt abt that!
I'm excepting everything now Kame has finally accepted his feelings.
No neeeed!

It's alright don't worry!
With this situation it's no wonder it was a mess.
Alright then, I'll just be patient, I have no choices anyway haha!
Hahaha I can't wait for this perfect chapter then !!

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Lmao I'm glad you enjoy those kind of interactions! I mean, the bf vibes are always more than welcome, especially if they show how their relationship is developing now!
Right? I mean, the fact he is a master doesn't mean he can't be a little clingy with his submitted and it was too tempting not to add it lol
I mean, he's used to have Ueda on him so he just went for it too and enjoyed it. It was people bothering him both for being there (lol) and for assuming unnecessary stuff ofc.
Exactly xD Ueda's submitted 24/7, open at any time. He's basically got it written it on his forehead by now xD
Shdj thank you! ;^; But yeah, Ueda's plan gave its good results in the end and Kame finally didn't care at all xD
Hm~, I think Kame would defend Ueda whenever anybody were to attack him any ways at this point of the story xD We'll see with time too I believe lol
True! It's like it's just the two of them for Kame now, so he can't be bothered by other people and just enjoys how clingy Ueda too can be lol
Yeah, he would love to have him more clung on him XD
Well that was indeed my main goal. I mean, they aren't clear about their own feelings yet, but they do care about the other so they just focused on themselves. Ueda that, despite saying it was part of his plan to destroy Kame's image, was all lovey dovey and went ooc for him and Kame going ooc not caring about others at all. They're maturing too.
Oooh he truly would lmao There are many ways Ueda would like to use Kame for xD
Yeah!
Exactly xD He's not just casually looking anymore, just going with the "Well he is handsome", but he's truly watching, staring and scanning him catching all the details. Thirst is becoming bigger for Kame here, to have his mind go so wild just looking at Ueda who was literally doing nothing lol
Well that's true too xD
LMAO I wonder if what is gonna happen in the new chapter will be up to your expectations then 👀

Thank you so much ;^;
True, gosh @@ I have so many things to study left behind too since, adding to this messy situation, I even have no energies at all orz
Lmao I'm trying to speed it up coz i can't wait to post this chapter too xD
I hope it's as perfect xD

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That's right! He still keeps the "dominant" vibes, still showing his rough/sadist side, but not planning anything of it and just following his bare instinct which indeed shows how much he yearned for it. I wonder where does he take all that control from xD
He's doing that on purpose to awaken Kame's instincts or what xD Either ways, it indeed made Kame finally realise something xD
Lmao well, he just thought that lowering his underwear would have been enough, he can justify himself saying he asked anyways xD Poor baby, he couldn't think straight too after all lol
So true! It's less kinky now, but still has that s/m vibes anyways.
Well, it's true indeed. Ueda is taking care of Kame and also desiring Kame the same way a lover would, paying attention to his reactions and his desires too at times. Of course it all starts with Ueda's own desires too, but it's slowly changing too. Their relationship is changing the more they do that, of course and they didn't even plan nor expect it. Which I myself sometimes wonder how are they gonna face it xD
He's finally becoming self-aware. Can't believe he didn't understand it with Ueda's fingers or the toy INSIDE OF HIM but with Ueda's dick RUBBING only against him. The power that dick holds, huh? 👀
Hm~ I wonder if Kame will ever be able to say it out loud or not lololol And definitely Ueda will lose his shit for good xD
I'M SO GLAD, GOSH THANK YOU!
Ahsjkfv the freaking scenario you just described! I swear I could picture it in my head so vividly and that was pure blessing!
I wonder how's that gonna turn out in the end tho~
Indeed, at first he would just stick to his role, thinking he wasn't allowed to do anything at all given his position. But now that he has his desires cleared, he just got braver trying to take what he wants or just going for that little skinship and stuff. Well, what will happen it's yet to see~
LMAO PLEASE BE PATIENT FOR A WHILE MORE
Exactly! I mean... Ueda's face can be so hot and erotic even when he's just performing on stage so TRY TO IMAGINE HOW SEXY HE'D LOOK WHEN HE'S ACTUALLY HAVING AN ORGASM/HAS HAD AN ORGASM AGDJAKFJSKK I'D DIE ON THE SPOT
Even more knowing it was him the one causing that face, like... the satisfaction xD
Guess he's waiting for the official proposal xD
True! He's finally understood what he wants so even the way he looks at Ueda is a brand new way, full of thirst, hunger and attraction or admiration as well
Hm~ I wonder what will he do in the next chapter :/
He loses one or two braincells each time he comes I guess xD
LMAO I'M HAPPY YOU COULD PICTURE HIS FACE COZ I WAS IMAGINING IT TOO XD
The annoyed and so-done-with-him face xD
He just had to let out his annoyance even with one single word lol He couldn't keep back xD
Yeah xD
As the good wifey he is, ofc lol
A man can dream sometimes xD
But well he was doing well before learning about the hickeys. Like, idiot, he's been devouring your neck all the night, what else would have the result been? Lmao
Luckily Ueda is way chiller than him, so he can help him get back down to earth somehow xD
He's slowly going with it... finally lol

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Aaaaw I'm glad that it could make you feel better ;^; Gosh I feel so honoured now lol
Exactly! I couldn't miss the chance given hiw obsessed he his lmao
I'm happy it's enjoyable ~ But basically yes, he's just becoming more self aware even if he himself isn't really focusing on how it's changing his way to react to Ueda and his requests/commands. Basically, now it's so much part of him indeed xD
Ever since he mentioned it, it was clear he wouldn't have missed the chance to actually do it (I mean... Given Kame's butt, I'd not want to miss the chance too lol), but buying stuff makes it even more real xD (I'm glad it's sort of constructive as well, then! XD)
Gosh, thank you so much! I'm so so happy to read it and to know that it's working out well with all the things I want the characters to show;^;
Especially with that scene! I'm relieved to know it turned out well!
Yes~ He's becoming so addicted and kinda voyeur too perhaps xD He just loves to have Ueda stare at him now hehehe
True! He entered into his role well and their relationship as master and submitted has reached the right level of thrust too in the end.
Well, who wouldn't stay still in front of that butt! Even less Ueda, once he has it totally naked right under his eyes lmao
But I just liked the idea of teasing him, marking the territory and then catching him by surprise!
And I'm so happy to know it had the right effects on the reader as well! *v*
I'm glad!
Lmao Thank yoou! Well, he's all into it now, so he just enjoys to even be punished so he needs more and more at this point lol
True! Wonder when will he just admit it to himself~
Plus, even if Ueda didn't see it, he would have felt it since he was literally on his legs anyways lmao
Your reactions kill me xD I'm glad you like it xD
He's still kinda trying to deny it to himself sometimes but Ueda just takes it out forcefully xD
THE "MAKE HIM MOAN INSTEAD" AHSJFK YOU GOT ME THERE XD
Lmao thaaanks omg
Exactly! That was what I was trying to show by making him do that thing. At first, he'd just follow Ueda's pace no matter if he did it roughly or not since he was still new and all. But now that he got how Ueda is used to do it and how much he himself wanted and needed more, he just went for it. Desire had the better over him despite him being the submitted there. Oi, Ueda what you do huh
True! He was indeed both shocked and suprised, but he didn't even have time to process it and just enjoyed it too xD
Yes! I guess that his arousal was due to that too in the end, seeing how much he was desired and also have his submitted force him a little. I mean, some like bratty/needy/spoiled/naughty submitted and I guess Ueda is no exception too xD
Lmao I just had fun mocking the reader a little xD I'm glad I could make up with the spitting though xD
But so true! It's so disgustingly HOT gosh, that's why I couldn't avoid it!
Even more to have Kame, THAT Kame, actually enjoy it coz it's Ueda who did it~
Sooo true! XD