- FANFICTION - Sucker For Pain

[uedanoyome]

Title: Sucker for Pain

Pairing: Kamenashi Kazuya/Ueda Tatsuya, Kamenashi Kazuya/Tanaka Koki friendship, Ueda Tatsuya/Taguchi Junnosuke friendship,

hints of Kamenashi Kazuya/Fukada Kyoko

Genre: BDSM, Smut, comedy, fluff

Rating: NC-17, R-18

Summary: Kamenashi Kazuya is a prim and proper idol who ends up working for a new project with the newcomer rising actor Ueda  Tatsuya. Kamenashi decides to accept the offer lightheartedly, thinking it would be as easy as one of his usual jobs. However, he didn't imagine it would end up being the most challenging work not only for his career but also for his private life.

Chapters: (1/??)

Warnings: contains explicit manXman sex scenes, cursing, sort of psychological violence

Disclaimer: I don't own the characters, just the story, which is -of course- only fantasy.

A/N: I usually would have never written this kind of KameDa before. But, since I happened to read a KameDa fanfic which was a BDSM fanfic as well, I wanted to write something like that for a very long time since it really inspired me given how beautiful it was! (when I'll be able to find the link again, I'll share it with you. If the author happens to read this: THANK YOU FOR HAVING CREATED THAT STORY! And sorry for having taken inspiration from some bits of it). Also thanks to a manga which helped me knowing more about BDSM in general lol.
I'm posting the other chapters on AO3, so if any of you wants to read them, just follow this link! https://archiveofourown.org/works/21092498/chapters/50183540

CHAPTER I

Kamenashi Kazuya is one of the most loved and famous idol and actor of all times: he's got a beautiful and handsome face, charisma, a perfect smile, stage presence, a wonderful singing voice and he is a skilled actor as well.

Thus, he is considered his agency's sex symbol.

He is indeed the man every girl dreams of and he has always been aware of it.

He knows very well how handsome and talented he is: it was obvious, so why should he even pretend not to know it?

Perfect life, perfect looks, and a wonderful girlfriend as well: He was Fukada Kyoko's boyfriend. They became the most loved couple out there. So, yeah, there was nothing he would have ever complained about in his perfect life, don't you think so?

He was always busy: if it did not have to do with music, he would be performing in some stage plays or whatever like that.

And that time, he had an even more important job coming for him for the first time: he would have acted in an action movie. Something he's never done before.

So, that day, he was going to his first meeting with the director and the fellow actors, a normal, boring routine he had to follow before they'd start filming stuff.

He entered the room where the director was waiting for him and sat down on his seat after having introduced himself.

"So, aren't we going to start yet?"

He looked around the room and saw an empty seat.

"We're waiting for your co-star. He's gonna be the main character together with you, so we have to discuss about what you two have to do".

Kamenashi nodded and rested his face on his fist. No professional actor would ever be late for a meeting for their own movie, especially for the first meeting. What kind of impression would he even give to the others? Kame knew well how this world worked. It was all about looks and manners, so you had to do whatever would please people around you to be liked.

After three quarters, the other actor finally decided to show up in the room. A slim, muscular guy with blonde and spiky hair, wearing a tight t-shirt, leather black jacket, large military pants and combact boots opened the door in a rough and noisy way. Said guy didn't even bother to excuse himself for being hella late; he just sloppily sat on his chair, not even daring to take his sunglasses off.

Witnessing this behaviour, Kame and his manager looked at each other. They were genuinely confused, however, the director just nodded with a smile on his face and started talking, explaining what the movie would be about.

"Now, let's move on to the introduction. Kamenashi Kazuya is going to be our first main, and Ueda Tatsuya our second main. Since this is your first time working together, and since you need some good chemistry between you two, I would suggest you to try to get to know each other better before we start filming. You have never met each other before and have to act like the best of buddies, so I'd suggest you guys to use wisely these months you have before filming starts. Here are your scripts. Please, remember what I told you. Also, I want to remind you that there's no way for you two to escape since you have already signed the contract~" he chuckled amused, he felt really accomplished by what he had just said.

Ueda lowered his glasses in order to look at Kamenashi, he was unimpressed even though he had the most famous and wanted idol and actor right in front of him.

"Tch".

That was all Ueda had to say, then he put his glasses back on.

Kame didn't really know whether to feel annoyed or not, nevertheless he put on a little smile and slightly bowed to his co-actor.

"Then, I hope we can get on well, Ueda-san".

Contrary to what he expected, Ueda just looked at him silently and cut him off with a dry "Whatever".

He was still new in that industry, yet he already had a strong impact on people and directors, especially for action-related stuff.

He was handsome, so, of course, all girls loved him, but he was also known to be really mysterious. His private life was a mystery to everyone, he had never had any rumor, he hasn't ever been caught in any kind of scandal, not even love scandals. It was no exaggeration to say nobody knew anything about him, except for his name and age. The only rumor he had had about himself was that he actually didn't live in Japan. He would occasionally go there when he had some offers he liked (he never accepted all the offers he was given), but after being done -or every now and then between shootings- he'd leave again for wherever he lived. Oh, and the fact that he didn't really seem to be that friendly was well known to everyone.

Kame didn't expect he would have experienced it on his own skin. But he was a pro, so he wouldn't have played the same game Ueda was playing. He kept having his smile printed on his face and tried to be as friendly as possible. Thinking about it, he even found interesting the fact that now Ueda had to be in Japan for quite a while even before shooting.

Ueda hit the table with his hand: "Are we done then? Is this all, can I go now?"

Seriously, he hadn't spoken a word until then, but now, the only thing he had to say was that? Why did the director even choose somebody as impolite as Ueda?

The director let them off, still reminding them to try to create a sort of friendship - or at least feign one - before shooting.

However, neither Kame nor Ueda actually took seriously the suggestion the director gave them and they left the studio not even exchanging contacts.

Ueda turned to Kame before leaving, and spoke to him in a totally disinterested tone of voice: "We don't need to do all the bullshit that idiot suggested us to do. We're actors, we can easily mock him and make him believe we became buddies even if we don't follow what he said. Like hell, I don't have time to waste to go out with a stranger and pretend to be his bestie".

Kame was actually surprised that Ueda could actually make such a long speech, since he seemed to be that type of person who'd reply back using monosyllables.

Still, he felt quite annoyed by the amount of curses he used. While it was true Kame was younger, he nevertheless was his senior and, on top of that, a stranger. That’s why he expected Ueda would have used a more appropriate and formal speech at least.

In spite of his character, what he had just said was quite fair: they were actors, so it would have been easy for them to pretend they actually had some chemistry. But, before Kame could even tell Ueda he agreed, the other man left the building without saying anything.

They thought they could easily get away with it, until both of them received a call from their managers the following day.

Kame picked up his phone just to be attacked by long strings of words so early in the morning.

"Kazuya, I don't think you can really avoid meeting with Ueda-san. You know, your director literally knows everything and he already knows you two tried to mock him, so he called me this morning. I'll pick you up later since the director gave me some material you should follow while you are with Ueda, but this is something I'm gonna tell you about when I pick you up. Anyway, this is Ueda's contact, try to get in touch with him".

Kame blinked speechlessly, he knew that director kept a close eye on his actors but he didn't expect him to be that much of a stalker. Ultimately, he only had to give up and get ready. Work is work, so he just gotta do what he gotta do.

////

On the other side, instead, Ueda was still in the middle of his sleep when his manager phoned him, so it took him quite a while to pick up the call.

"What the fuck d'ya want? Haven't you seen what time is it now?"

Normally, Ueda isn't the most friendly person on Earth, but his level of grumpiness reached even higher peaks in the morning, especially if anyone dared to interrupt his sleep.

"I know it is early and I imagined you were sleeping, but I have received a call from your director, Ueda-sama"

"Ueda-sama" Yes, you read it well. Despite him being his manager, Ueda demanded that he'd call him that.

"What the heck does he want now? I'm not going to the studio again just to hear him say the same bullshits as yesterday", finally Ueda got up and looked for his shirt around his messy bedroom.

"That is not exactly what he wanted. He said he knows you and Kamenashi-san did not plan to meet up and did not exchange contacts, so he gave me Kamenashi-san's contacts and some papers for you to use while you meet with your colleague. I am going to send you Kamenashi-san's contact, then I am coming to pick you up later and give you the papers your director gave me. Please, try to get ready quickly because he wants you two to meet today".

Ueda snorted annoyed. He didn't really follow the whole speech his manager said, but he understood what was the point. And it made him even grumpier, so he just ended the call and went to have a shower.

"What the fuck, he's a fucking director, he should think of his damn movie only and not butt in other people's fucking lives. As if I'm even going to obey him. He knows for who he paid, anyways".

////

Kame was finally ready and he waited for his manager to pick him up.

As soon as Kame got in the car, his manager handed him some papers.

"Your director emailed me these things here. He said you and Ueda-san have to follow this sort of script, so you can actually relate to your characters. There's a list with things you are supposed to ask each other to get to know the other well, and things you need to do together".

Kame looked and quickly read the papers he was holding. His director really made a schedule for him and Ueda?! Was that even allowed? Kame was hesitating while he was busy reading those papers, and his manager noticed it. After all, his manager, Tanaka Koki, knew him best given the fact that they have been friends since forever and he could read him well.

"Kazuya, I know this is crazy but it's an important job, this one. It's gonna be on big screens so just go with it".

Kamenashi knew it well himself. It was the best offer he had had that year, so he had to work hard and succeed in his role so that many more offers as big would have come and his image would become even better.

He sighed and nodded, "Yeah, I know. I am not going to refuse it. I just have to hope this Ueda won't give me any problems, though".

"Have you contacted him yet?"

"I've sent him a mail before you came but he's not replied back yet".

Kame already foresaw himself having to bear with this pretty often now that he had to spend more time with that problematic and mysterious guy.

Be patient, Kazuya, be patient. This is why you're a pro.

///

"What the fuck is this shit?! You must be kidding me! That scumbag really made up a whole schedule! I'm not in, I absolutely am not up to it". Ueda's voice could be heard from the outside of his car, despite it being totally closed.

He threw the papers to his manager and twisted his lips in anger. He couldn't believe he had to follow that shit just for a damn movie. It wasn't the first time he acted with somebody he didn't know, so why the heck did he have to follow a damn script even out of his job and go out with somebody he didn't want to be with?

"I know you are angry now, but, really, it is a lot of money he is offering you and he is a famous director as well. This will help you get a lot of great offers, Ueda-sama! You cannot refuse it. It is just a meeting with a colleague every now and then, you had to stay in Japan during these months anyway, so just take it as a past time".

Taguchi Junnosuke, Ueda's manager, always tried to see the positive side of things and tried to persuade Ueda using his positivity.

Most of the times it worked, simply because Ueda couldn't be bothered by him insisting and talking for too long.

"Fuck it, there'll be other offers".

"Don't be like this, come on! If other directors know that you snobbed him, nobody will hire you, so just try it".

Ueda snorted, roughly grabbing the papers from his manager's hands, and gave them a quick look.

"I'll meet this Kamenashi-dude, but I'm not gonna follow this idiocy of a script".

Taguchi nodded and smiled accomplished: he knew Ueda would have listened to him, in a way or another, especially if he reminded him what would that movie offer him.

"Have you contacted Kamenashi-san, yet?"

"Heck, no! I would never dare to".

Taguchi sighed, Ueda was truly hopeless and would never change his mind if he didn't want to do something.

"You should contact him to meet"

Ueda snorted and took his phone: "Why should I? I believe the director gave GodNashi my contact as well. He's my senior so he shoulda contacted me first".

Ueda checked his phone and noticed that Kame had, indeed, sent him a mail asking him if it was alright to meet at a private cafeteria in a hour. However, when Ueda finally checked his phone, one hour had already passed, so he was, obviously, late.

"There ya go, he contacted me. Happy now? This dude here really took that scumbag seriously?!" , he snorted again and told him the place he had to go to, not even bothering to reply back to Kame's message.

///

Kame checked his watch. He had been waiting at that cafe for more than an hour already and that Ueda didn't even text him back to, at least, let him know if he would have reached him or not.

《How are we even supposed to get along if he doesn't even bother to reply back or come to a meeting?! I'm a pro and I don't have time to waste with a newcomer actor who's already so swollen-headed》.

He was about to leave the place when, finally, Ueda entered the room and listlessly sat in front of him. Again, not apologising, again not greeting.

Kamenashi coughed, in order to try to catch the other guy's attention, but, as expected, he was purposely ignored.

"Good morning, Ueda-san. I have waited for you for quite a while, plus, I was waiting for an answer to my message".

Kame kept a calm and low tone of voice, making sure not to sound too strict. The last thing he wanted was a fight with Ueda at their first meeting.

However, the only thing he got was a quick "Saw your message, now I'm here. G'mornin' ".

Kame tried so hard not to retort to Ueda's disinterested manners, but there was one thing he couldn't stand at the moment, and that is to say his sunglasses.

"Ueda-san, may I ask you to take your sunglasses off?"

"You may, of course, but this doesn't mean I'm gonna do it"

Kame took a deep breath and counted till ten before talking again, when he was finally calm again, then he started speaking.

"Well, we are in the middle of a talk, and I would rather look into your eyes than see myself into your specs".

Ueda smirked a little: "Oh really? Don't cha like the reflection? The famous and godly Kamenashi Kazuya? I thought you did. But, if you'd rather focus on your image later then, 'k".

Kame was just about to explode, but he tried to contain himself. He surely wouldn't have fallen into Ueda's trap and play the same game he was playing.

Finally, Ueda decided to take his sunglasses off, revealing two beautiful dark eyes, which were as bright and as deep and beautiful as black agate stones.

Kame looked at his eyes for a second, when he was interrupted by Ueda's "Ya happy now?".

He slightly nodded.

"Since our director told us we should meet to know each other better, I believe we should start talking according to what the script says".

Ueda laughed, he seemed to be really amused and Kame didn't really see the reason why he looked like that.

"Is there something funny, perhaps?"

"Just as expected from all directors' sweetheart Kamenashi Kazuya. You'd really follow that bunch of bullshits".

Kame looked at him and blinked a few times in order to collect his thoughts and phrase them in the less impolite possible way: "It's for the sake of our film's outcome. We got to make it look as natural as possible for it to be a success, thus, we ought to follow what we have been told".

Ueda laughed again, this time he avoided answering though. Seeing no words were coming from the other party, Kame just started talking again. Changing topic would, indeed, have been the best way not to lose his nerves.

"Since our script says we should talk about ourselves, why don't you tell me something about you? Your life, for example".

Ueda snorted and crossed his legs, making himself as comfortable as possible: "Hell no. There's a reason why it's called private life. So it should be private and not be spilled to any random stranger I meet. I'm not like the big star Kamenashi Kazuya, whose private life is all over the internet and tabloids".

Thinking of it, Kame started preferring when Ueda answered with monosyllables only or when he didn't answer at all. His words were as sharp as a knife, and Ueda himself knew it.

"It is just the two of us, we will be working together for a long time, so we will not be strangers anyways. Plus, our script says so". Kame kept using his formal and polite speech, meanwhile Ueda, who just defined Kamenashi as a stranger, kept talking to him so informally.

"The script, the script. You have already learnt that thing by heart? I'd rather clean my dog's shit with that script than actually follow it. I'm not like you, I don't do what they tell me to do, even if they are movies' directors or whatever they are. I do the fuck I want and however the fuck I want to. If I don't like it, I just won’t do it. So forget this whole bullshit, coz I'm not gonna answer any of those stupid things. As for you, we all already know everything about you. You live the perfect life: lotsa money, great success both as a singer and as an actor, and a hella bombshell as a girlfriend. Congrats, man" Ueda smirked and crossed his legs satisfied, especially when he saw Kame's expression gradually change from the professional idol Kamenashi Kazuya was to an annoyed and not-so-professional Kamenashi.

Kame looked at the guy in front of him and inhaled deeply. He was dangerously close to lose his last nerve and finally tell him to watch his mouth and shut the fuck up. But he didn't.

"You seem to be very informed. But these are not the only things we have to talk about".

"Listen, I'm not gonna talk about myself to a stranger. You might be okay with following a script in real life too, but I'm not. I've got no time to waste with all this falsehood and made-up scenes, unlike you. I don't like to be told what to do".

Kame felt these last phrases cut him sharply, it gave him chills all over his spine, but the only come-back he had was a low "Excuse me?".

Ueda stood up after sipping his coffee, leaned close to Kame's ear, and talked in a low and warm yet sharp tone of voice: "I'm not the one who has to follow what I'm told to do. People gotta obey me, not the contrary, Kame-chan".

So he opened the door and left without speaking further. While Kame was speechlessly looking at the chair where Ueda was sitting just a while ago, feeling Ueda's words running down his spine.

///

When his manager picked him up, Kame was furious, or actually ashamed that somebody he didn't even know had treated him the way Ueda just did.

Moreover, difficult to believe, he almost lost his composure once again while retelling the meeting he just had to Koki.

"I don't think I can do this anymore. I mean, meeting that guy".

Kame was trembling, be it for his nerves and anger, be it for some other reasons he still didn't know.

"Eh? Why? Kazuya, if you don't follow what your director told you to do, he'll know it and I don't really think it will be that pleasing".

Kame shook his head: "I just can't! That guy kept making a fool of me during the whole meeting! He's got no manners and no respect at all. He seriously says whatever he wants however and whenever he wants and I can't stand it again. He literally ridiculed me all the time, and his words were too sharp for him not to be serious. He really meant them!"

Koki was trying hard to calm his friend down and try to make him go back to his senses, but once Kame's pride has been hurt then there's nothing much to do.

"No, I really can't bear to be made a fool of by a newcomer who knows nothing about me and about the showbiz world".

Koki looked at him apprehensively.

"What about taking some days off him. Once you have calmed down, you'll agree with him for a second meeting? You don't have to rush things, so wait till you're in the mood again, but you gotta meet him. For your movie's sake, at least".

Kame sighed and nodded: "Fine, fine. But I don't want to meet him tomorrow, so let me be".

///

Junno picked Ueda up after he called him telling him his meeting with Kame was over. Now, the both of them were sitting in the car while heading back to the hotel Ueda was staying at.

"So? How was it with Kamenashi-san?"

Ueda smiled amused and kept a playful yet distinctively sharp tone: "Oh, we had lotsa fun. I might have some more fun next time I see him, but I, unfortunately, think he doesn't think the same. I actually don't believe he's ever gonna invite me out again, so sad". He laughed accomplished while Junno looked at him puzzled and sighed.

"Ueda-sama... Please, do not tell me you did it again? You did the same with your previous colleagues as well and they had the same reaction".

Ueda smirked: "Did what? I did absolutely nothing. Our director told us we should talk to know each other, so talking was all I did. I am starting to give him an idea of who I am, so he knows me too". Ueda's voice was really calm, yet it had a malicious tone which was worrying Junno. He knew how he treated his other colleagues and giving Kamenashi Kazuya the same treatment wouldn't have been a great idea.

"Ueda-sama, it is true he has to get to know you well, but he should not know that kind of side of yours. You should try to be friendly".

Ueda raised his eyebrow and slowly turned to Junno while twisting his lips. He leaned closer to his manager, grabbed his hair, and talked in a low, threatening tone: "Are you, asshole, perhaps telling me what to do? I didn't remember I gave ya the right to do this"

Junno's eyes widened, he felt chills run down his spine, his hands started sweating and his voice trembled. He realized he might have unconsciously touched Ueda's nerves with his advice, which Ueda misunderstood for some kind of commands.

"U-Ueda-sama, you know I would never dare commanding you anything. I was just suggestin-".

Ueda's hand tightened around his manager's hair, making the other man squeal.

"I don't take orders, I give 'em. Remember this. I don't need any suggestion, especially from you. I do the fuck I want, I know how to handle it. Apologise. Now".

Junno nodded and gulped, his voice still blatantly showing his fear and begging the man holding his hair: "I-I am sorry, I did not mean to get on your nerves. Forgive me, please".

Ueda's hand finally let him go and the manager took a sigh of relief. Angry Ueda is the scariest thing a person would ever want to see, things would be too dangerous for a normal person to bear, if so.

///

The following days, Kame refused to contact Ueda again for another meeting. He needed time to cool his head, and meeting with that guy again just to receive the same treatment as their first meeting, wouldn't have been the best choice.

However, a week had already passed, so, Kame knew that, despite him not wanting to, he had to contact Ueda again.

"Koki, do you have Ueda-san's manager's contact?"

"Yeah, the director gave me his contact as well. Why do you need it, though?"

Kame sighed: "I'd rather talk with his manager than Ueda-san himself when we have to agree on meetings. I already have to bear with him for a whole day, so I can't stand to have his annoyed voice fool me also while I'm trying to do my job".

Koki laughed and gave Kame his phone so he could get Ueda's manager's phone number.

"He is indeed nicer than Ueda-san, so you'll have it easier, at least".

Kame quickly composed Junno's phone number and called him. It didn't take that long for him to pick the call up. Kame was relieved: at least, one of them two didn’t ignore him!

"Hello? I am Ueda Tatsuya's manager, Taguchi Junnosuke speaking".

As Kame heard the cheerful and energic voice at the other side of the phone, he took a sigh of relief. Maybe, this time, it would have been easier to set a meeting.

"Hello, it's Kamenashi Kazuya. I am sorry if I disturbed you in the morning".

"Oh, Kamenashi-san! Please do not worry about it, you have not disturbed me at all! I am actually surprised to receive a call from you".

Kame could feel that the other man was smiling just by hearing his voice. He seemed so nice, and this made Kame wonder why couldn't he meet with him rather than meeting with Ueda. Surely, it would have felt much better.

"Ah, yes... About this call... I preferred to contact you, this time, to set a meeting with Ueda-san today. For a dinner".

Junno seemed relieved when he heard that Kame was actually okay with meeting Ueda once again. At least, he hadn’t escaped yet like the other actors Ueda worked with.

"I am really glad you want to meet him again! Currently, Ueda-sama is still sleeping but he does not have any plan for this evening, so it should be okay. Please, be patient! I am going to wake him up and inform him about your invitation. Then, I will contact you again to agree on the place and time. Is it okay?"

‘Ueda-sama’... For real? His manager really had to call him that? Seriously, who did that guy think he was to even demand something like that? Kame was sure it was Ueda who wanted to be called like that, based on the impression he gave on the first meeting.

That guy was too good to work with somebody as complicated as Ueda.

"Sure! Take your time! Thank you for your helpfulness!"

///

After he hung up the call, Junno rushed to Ueda's hotel room and quickly opened all windows so some light could get in the room.

"Ueda-sama, you need to wake up! I have some things to tell you. Please get out of bed".

He quickly took Ueda's blankets off, finding a half-naked Ueda right in front of him. Biceps, chest and abs at their best.

Ueda looked at Junno still half-asleep, but with a clear annoyed expression printed on his face. His voice was still mumbling: "What the fuck are you even doing, idiot?"

Junno was used to Ueda's insults, to the point that he couldn't even hear them anymore. He just liked to think of them like a sign of their friendship. He is really so positive.

"I have talked to Kamenashi-san a while ago; he wants to meet you again this evening. He wants to have dinner with you".

"Da fuck?! And this is why you came here making all this fucking noise?! Fuck off and lemme sleep, I won't meet anyone". Ueda took his blankets back on and lied back in the bed.

Junno sat next to him, complaining and whining just like a professional manager would do: "Please, Ueda-sama~ Listen to me, at least. Kamenashi-san is just trying to do his job"

Ueda snorted: "Holy shit, you can be so fucking annoying even when it's early in the morning".

Junno poked Ueda's arm, having him slap his hand away as a result. But, at least, he managed to keep him awake and now Ueda was finally sitting on his bed.

"I have to say I am surprised he wants to meet you again. You said you thought he would have not contacted you again".

Ueda snorted again and rolled his eyes: "I should have imagined that the wonderful Kamenashi Kazuya would never refuse to do something to please directors, or else he wouldn't be as famous". He clicked his tongue, but after a second he smirked mischievously. Junno was worried, that smile didn't mean anything good, he knew it well.

"Fine, he wants to follow that damn script and meet me? Okay. He'll have to meet me every fucking day, but it'll be his worst nightmare. Tell him I'll meet him this evening".

Comments are welcome! Let me know what do you think of it!

Comments

[emisana.livejournal.com]

Hi,
I really liked this first chapter and I hope you'll post the second one soon!
It's so good so far, looking forwards to what's gonna follow!

[uedanoyome.livejournal.com]

Hi!
Thank you so much for having read the first chapter! I'm so happy you like it!

I actually posted two new chapters on ao3 -but forgot to update them here ^^'-, so if you'd like to read more, you can check it out on that site!
If not so, then I can upload them here as well

Thank you so much again for reading! ❤

[emisana.livejournal.com]

Hi,
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And no need, I'm really liking it!

[uedanoyome.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you could find it!
Also, knowing that you're liking it makes me really happy! Thank you so much!
I hope you'll like what is going to come next little by little!

[emisana.livejournal.com]

I finished to read the 2 others chapters earlier and it's just becoming better and better, I really can't wait for the future chapters to come!
Been a while I've been into a fanfic this much!

[uedanoyome.livejournal.com]

Omg, reading this makes me feel so overwhelmed ;^;
Thank you so much for your sweet words!
I'm honoured to know it's catching your interest till that point!
I'll do my best to post more and soon!
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[emisana.livejournal.com]

No need! :)
Thanks to you for writting such good stuff and in any case you had a doubt about this fanfic, please don't and keep going!
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[uedanoyome.livejournal.com]

You shouldn't thank me, really! I'm glad that the stuff I'm writing can catch somebody's attention, and it's just for people like you that I feel like it was worth posting it despite the doubts ;^;
Thank you again, I'll do my best and keep going!

[emisana.livejournal.com]

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[uedanoyome.livejournal.com]

I'm glad I could serve you some readable stuff to pass time with, surely knowing you like it made my doubts go away and made me more confident to give my very best while writing!
Thank you for keeping an eye on it, I have many chapters ready to be checked, so more stuff will come in the next days!

[emisana.livejournal.com]

Very glad to hear this!
I'm sure others people are also enjoying it but some people doesn't always leave a comment sadly. But I'm sure they are liking it as much as I do!

I can't wait to read them then! Gonna keep checking!

[uedanoyome.livejournal.com]

I hope so, really! XD
But knowing that there are people like you who liked it, or other people who at least clicked on it is satisfying enough at least!

Thank you for your support! \(^o^)/

[emisana.livejournal.com]

I'm sure!
Glad to hear. :)

No need!
I just finished reading the new chapter you posted btw!
This is pretty much torture to finish it that way haha but as always just making me look forwards to the next one again!

[uedanoyome.livejournal.com]

You already did? I'm glad!!
I liked the idea of that kind cliffhanger, but I hope it was a good chapter at least xD

I'm glad you do~!

[emisana.livejournal.com]

Yess! When I saw you posted a new chapter, I read it right away!
It's really nice to end up a chapter like that cauz it make us want to keep reading haha!
It's frustrating but in a good way haha.
But yeah all the chapters are so good like just keeps getting better and better!

[uedanoyome.livejournal.com]

Omg, you're so sweet! I'm so happy to have such a lovely reader ;^;

Yeah, right? It's kind of an attention-catcher somehow xD
I'm really glad that you like the way it is going so far! I hope it stays this way!

[emisana.livejournal.com]

Well, when I told you it's been a while since I was into a fanfic this much I wasn't lying haha, so ofc each time you'll post a new chapter I'll read it right away!

Totally!
I'm sure it'll stay that way!

[uedanoyome.livejournal.com]

I really feel honoured to know this, omg!
I'll make sure to keep posting regularly so the wait won't be too long then!

You're the loveliest omg I'm so touched!

[emisana.livejournal.com]

I'm just really enjoying it!
Yeeah haha! But please don't feel any pressure, if you don't have time I can wait. But if you have time then good for me haha.

It's normal!
I think people should say it more often when they appreciate someone else's work/writing/art etc. :)

[uedanoyome.livejournal.com]

I'm happy ;^;
Don't worry~ I have a big amount of chapters already written, so they just need to be beta-ed and they're all ready to be posted little by little xD

It's really overwhelming, as a reader too, I just feel like praising a good job is worth since, as a writer, I know how satisfying it feels afterall xD

[emisana.livejournal.com]

"big amount of chapters" really liking to know this haha!
I'll really looking forwards to them so much each single time!

Right ? I also know how it feel like to spend hours to think at something then create it, making it real and having people praising you for it like really make you feel you didn't do all this for nothing and that some people appreciate your work this much!

[uedanoyome.livejournal.com]

LMAO I'm glad you do! I'll make sure the beta-ing process won't take too long so they can come put in a decent amount of time xD
Glad you do, since the story will slowly go to a very interesting direction

Exactly! It takes a lot of time and struggles to write something decent stuff and develop it the best way and make it interesting as well for others, afterall
That's exaxtly what I mean! Seeing people appreciating your hard work is the best part of that since it makes you understand that it wasn't wasted time working on it

[emisana.livejournal.com]

Thank you haha!
I really can't wait to see how their relationship is gonna turn out.

I don't doubt! This is why I'm amazed by how good your story is, I've read a good amount of fanfics and only a few were written in a way, like, could have been a book.
And yeah in your story I really like how the characters are, cauz I often ended up reading fanfics that had a similar storyline, similar characters but yours isn't like that, it has very interesting characters and development. Which is why I got addicted to it very quickly after reading the first chapter haha.
But yeah to have people showing how they appreciate/love your work is really making you feel you weren't wrong to spend so much time on it!

[uedanoyome.livejournal.com]

I personally think it's interesting to see the way they will interact going on so I hope it's gonna be as interesting for you as well xD

I'm not much of a fanfic expert so knowing that somebody who's read more fics than me thinks so, like... I would never imagine that something I wrote just for fun would turn out to be a story somebody else could enjoy ;^; I'm overwhelmed
Thank you! I tried to make the characters as unique and different as I could, trying to portray them in the most realistic and different way and try to give space to their inner selves as well, so it means a lot to me ;^;
Exactly what I meant! It doesn't make it feel like you've just wasted time for some stupid stuff

[emisana.livejournal.com]

I'm sure I'll keep find it interesting haha!

It'd be hard not to enjoy what you're writing because of how good it is, I know I repeat myself but it's just the truth!
And that surely shows in your story, the characters are really so good, it feels more real cauz there is characters traits that are actually from the real life of Ueda & Kame so it make me even more into the story. You just found the good balance which is quite hard to get when reading fanfics cauz sometimes it's so opposite of the real persons that it's harder to imagine so harder to enjoy.
Clearly you haven't waste your time and it's clearly not stupid!